I am really happy that I finally got the opportunity to share my Testimony online because God used the internet to pursue me. So here goes:

At a young age Church to me was just something you do on Sunday Mornings and young women and men who called themselves Christians were people who I did not want to be like. It’s not that I didn’t like Christians or didn’t want to associate myself with them but becoming a Christian was something I had put in my long term planning for when I became forty or fifty. Plus, I did not grow up in a Christian family that would have instilled in me the high importance of following Christ.

I went to an All Girl’s High School. During my teen years in High School I was trying to fit in with the majority. I was mainly influenced by my peers and especially the media as it relates to what a woman should be. It seemed like a lot of emphasis was placed on outward appearance and less on the inward. When I turned twenty one I still went to parties and but I felt like the odd ball. I was seeing everything differently. Most of the Music degraded women and the clothes that girls wore really just encouraged lust in young men which I was also guilty of wearing as well .I started to re-examine my life and where it was going. I remember thinking there has to be more to life than what it appeared to be and I also pondered the real purpose for which God created me. I felt alone, disappointed and heart broken especially due to the fact that I had just broken up with my boyfriend. I was at a low point and found myself in front of the aimlessly computer surfing the net one night.

The Pursuit
I went on this website and I saw this young guy’s Testimony online that lived in the U.S. I remember thinking to myself that’s profound and I (THE NON-CHRISTIAN) decided to send him a message of encouragement. Soon this guy replied to my email and told me that he was going to visit Jamaica because he had family out here and I was still unaware of what God was doing. When I met this guy I was very eager to know about God and deep down inside of me I had a million questions to ask and strangely I felt extremely comfortable talking to this young man I just met. I was really in awe about how he spoke about Jesus being his friend. He didn’t act like God was far off in the skies but he spoke like God was right with him and his best friend. I had this perception in my head that he would soon tell me about going to church and hell but he never did. Instead he told me that God desired a very intimate relationship with me. A relationship that involved more than just going to church and saying grace before meals.One in which God wanted to be my friend and I should just talk to him and tell him everything. This same guy I met online invited me to a bible study and everything the leader spoke about at the bible study I could relate to. At the end of the bible study the leader asked who wanted to give their life to Christ and I hand went up. It was strange to me because I don’t like attention and when all eyes where on me I wanted to put my hand down but couldn’t. My hand literally felt weighty and when the leader of the study began to pray tears began to run from my eyes. I felt a little embarrassed but all I knew at that very moment when my hand went up and it was like a symbolic act of me saying “God please show me the light, comfort me, I’m so tired of living in this world where my true beauty is defined by the size of my waist and the size of my thighs, I’m so tired of people defining me because of my circumstances, I’m so tired of men who only love me because of my outward appearance, Lord show me the way, take away my desires if they are wrong, Jesus please heal me, come fill this void.” These words sum up exactly how I felt that night and somehow I knew the answer was in Jesus. That’s part of being human we were created to worship Jesus and until we accept that we will continue to search for fulfillment in the wrong places such as money, husband, wife, friends, etc. but eventually you will come place where you cannot go any longer. We usually have the right expectations (love, joy, peace,) but the wrong source. When we give our life to Christ and accept his love we can shake off the extremely high expectations we place on others and freely walk with him.

Right there and then I made a decision to walk with Jesus Christ and even got baptized within two months after that incident. I thought I was just sending a ‘hi and bye’ email to a stranger. I was totally unaware of this “big set up” that God had planned for my life. When I sent that email, little did I know that God would strategically and literally place someone in my life by allowing them to come to Jamaica so that their awesome faith in God would have a great impact on my life thus, increasing my faith in Jesus. A matter of fact I could not have fathomed it. That one click of my mouse and reply from my computer “message sent” was the beginning of the pursuit of my soul and heart by God’s amazing love. This shows me how loving and caring God is because I did not in anyway go out of my way or do anything to try and meet this person it was totally set up by God.

My lil Encouragement to you
Ladies, true beauty is not defined by your outward appearance. I have learnt that true beauty is a rare character trait that has to do with your heart. Don’t settle for what the world throws at you in which women are seen as seductresses or merely sex objects but know that you are a rare gem created in God’s image and likeness.

Be like Jesus
There is no poster child for Christianity and you don’t have to have problems either. All the people who have shared on this site have one thing in common and that’s they were ready. All you have to be is ready.

God’s Love
God is Love and his love heals all wounds. Sweetheart God loves yah!